News and crazy feelings

Well, I finally had an official doctor's visit, and the news is that we are having a new baby, due March 9th. This comes as quite a surprise to us. Considering the difficulty with fertility for four years between Logan and Kenna, we assumed that things would continue to be difficult (and there was a good possibility that Kenna would be the final baby).

I felt very overwhelmed the first few weeks after realizing I was pregnant. Emotions and hormones can be crazy things sometimes. Josh gave me a blessing which brought peace to my heart. I found out I was pregnant about three days before I found out a lovely friend of mine had lost her two infant girls. I had a really hard time being happy for myself when I was so incredibly sad for her. It seems so unfair and backwards.

I've had to remember that Heavenly Father loves my friend more than I do - and He will take care of her. I've been worrying myself sick over how my news will make my friend feel. But I've realized that my worrying isn't helping anything - it just makes me feel worse. So for now, I have to trust in Heavenly Father's love for all of us and keep my friend in my prayers while I take care of the needs of my family. That's all I can do right now. And friend, when you read this, know that I love you.

I had my first doctor visit today. He was very excited to see Josh and I. He's kind of a funny little man, but I like him. He said that this time he wants to deliver my baby (the on-call doctor delivered Kenna). We had a sonogram to give us the due date. The baby kicked his/her little feet at us to wave hello. Josh is pretty sure we're having a girl, so I'm probably just going to say "she" after this to simplify life. He's been right every single time so far! Anybody want to bet against him?

The older kids are very excited. Poor Kenna has no idea her life will be changing forever shortly. :-)