You probably never have those moments like I had on Friday when I called Josh, almost in tears, and begged him to take me to lunch because I could not stand another minute with my children or in my house.
Never.
I doubt you have ever had a two-year old scream at you to sit down, stand up, hold her, put her down, feed her, not that food, no singing, no touching, outside, don't put her down, don't be outside....and a host of other complaints....non-stop at the top of her lungs for two hours straight. Not your kids. (You can see why I had to leave the house on Friday. I was close to losing it).
Josh did take me to lunch. He took me to the only thing remotely close to a Red Robin (which is what I wanted) - the North Coast Brewery restaurant. I passed on the beer, and delved instead into onion rings, a philly cheese-steak sandwich, garlic fries, and a lemon-cream cake to round it out. The truth comes out. I do drown my sorrows in food. I didn't have to eat for the rest of the day. I went home. Took a nap. And felt much better.
Recently I discovered a blog called Passionate Homemaking. What first drew me was THIS POST about priorities. Not everything is as important as we make it sound. And we are not failing if we don't do everything right all the time.
I'm in the middle of figuring out a new calling. I am feeling more overwhelmed about this new calling than ever before. The time involved, the knowledge needed, the level of spiritual preparation which feels practically impossible some days, it's all combining to make this feel like a very big mistake to have accepted. The bright spot is that I hope and pray that this will lead me closer to Heavenly Father. I've been praying and working towards that end recently, and have been finding little gifts along the way that help me with that goal. I'm hoping that this will turn out to be one of those gifts. In the meantime, we go forward with faith, right? And keep our priorities in order.
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Loved your post... sorry Natty was being a pill though. Reading the post on the blog you referred to reminded me of one of my favorite quotes that I keep on my fridge and read regularly.
"My dear [sisters], you cannot do everything well at the same time. You cannot be a 100 percent wife, a 100 percent mother, a 100 percent church worker, a 100 percent career person, and a 100 percent public-service person at the same time. Doing things sequentially gives a woman the opportunity to do each thing well in its time and to fill a variety of roles in her life."
President James E. Faust. Ensign Feb 2006
You can't DO it all, and you can't BE it all, at least not all at once.
Nope, never had a day like that. :) Of course, I've never had anxiety either.
Dear Kelly, I think someone must have hijacked your blog. It must have been the same person that hijacked my life on Tuesday of this week. What is this world coming to?! I'm just glad to know I'm not the only one who gets hijacked.
And, with your calling, remember the Lord will qualify you because He is the one that called you. I also like to reverse that verse that says "unto whom much is given, much is required" so that it says "unto whom much is required, much is given"... don't know if it's doctrinally sound in all cases, but I can't think of a time when it isn't the case. You are an amazing, and I mean A-MAY-ZING, person!
Don't change and have a cool summer! (Added for humor since this comment was starting to sound a bit like a yearbook dedication... haha!) Love you!
I am sorry that you had a bad day! Yep, that song that Sister Rasmussen sang at the Women's conference, was probably just the feelings. I remembered having those same feelings, and I only have 3 boys! btw....You're amazing to me!
And, as for your calling, whatever it is, you'll do great! I know you will and the Lord does, too.
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